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I dreamt of going to a cafe because I felt he was waiting.

In reality, he is not there.

I had a dream before of jumping off a building.

It appears I have fallen deeper into my fantasies and not out of it.

He is not there. He is not waiting. Why am I making the goals of my life directed to a person…. a figment of my imagination… yet someone who makes me laugh, even in my dreams…

Should I give up?

What should I live for then?

I hope to find an answer soon. Life is moving too fast.

It would not stop or slow down, an aspect of the world I find cruel.

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