boyfriends

I’m turning 19 this year. I know it’s not the end of the world if I don’t have one but I’m just a tad worried. I mean I hear stories from my friends of these guys stalking, confessing or just having a friendly chat with them and well it hasn’t happened to me.

Perhaps I’m oblivious to these things and I know it’s not really to do with me… sort of I mean I had my doubts about my appearance, personality and if I’m sending out a ‘don’t approach me’ vibe. Though my friends were kind enough to give me a good scolding about how great a person I am and that guys my aged aren’t looking for a serious relationship like I am so don’t take it too personally. So the usual ‘it’s not you it’s everyone else’ sort of lecture.

But then again… maybe it is me. I mean, I’m not the type of person to try and meet new people or have loads of acquaintances, I prefer a tight knit cluster of friends and my family. I can’t imagine how people dedicate themselves to 50 or so acquaintances, I guess that’s why I’m not in business. My mind will blow with all that info…

Anyways, back to the topic at hand. How on earth am I going to meet a guy who really love me for me. It took long enough for me to love myself and it just seems impossible.

*sigh*

Well, right now I’m going to become someone all by myself. Beautiful inside and out. I won’t need a guy until I meet him, who ever he is.

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