I’m turning 19 this year. I know it’s not the end of the world if I don’t have one but I’m just a tad worried. I mean I hear stories from my friends of these guys stalking, confessing or just having a friendly chat with them and well it hasn’t happened to me.

Perhaps I’m oblivious to these things and I know it’s not really to do with me… sort of I mean I had my doubts about my appearance, personality and if I’m sending out a ‘don’t approach me’ vibe. Though my friends were kind enough to give me a good scolding about how great a person I am and that guys my aged aren’t looking for a serious relationship like I am so don’t take it too personally. So the usual ‘it’s not you it’s everyone else’ sort of lecture.

But then again… maybe it is me. I mean, I’m not the type of person to try and meet new people or have loads of acquaintances, I prefer a tight knit cluster of friends and my family. I can’t imagine how people dedicate themselves to 50 or so acquaintances, I guess that’s why I’m not in business. My mind will blow with all that info…

Anyways, back to the topic at hand. How on earth am I going to meet a guy who really love me for me. It took long enough for me to love myself and it just seems impossible.


Well, right now I’m going to become someone all by myself. Beautiful inside and out. I won’t need a guy until I meet him, who ever he is.